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Joshua Paul Kay

"beautiful things come from the dark. everything is birthed from here, yet we are a destined to go further and be something more. we are born with traits, just not developed. the innate yearn and ache to feel complete drives us towards something more. scars and wrinkles mark the turns and pauses on our journey. we tend to live for the moments where we feel almost outside of ourself. in the moment it doesn’t feel like escape, more so how our world is meant to be. it’s not until we feel buried inside again that we confuse these unnatural thrills as escapes. pretty soon we identify the “real world” as a natural letdown, as if we’re trapped here and if we could just get out and re-write, organize, identify with anything we don’t already know and just be something no one has (detach from humanity and it’s identity as a whole) we might finally have what we’re missing..because let’s face it, everything else has let us down already. as long as we feel “owed” anything and everything we want we will be unhappy…no one and nothing will ever live up to our expectations. have you forgotten the holistic moments you now live more and more for that can’t be measured in money or time, that are unexpected, that require more than you, and that are really out of your own control? so is the natural more than what you can predict, buy, control, taste, touch, and hold? if not, than why do all of these things not matter when we finally feel okay, complete, and satisfied in our soul? isn’t this natural? we can run our whole lives thinking if we can just get somewhere we’ll finally be happy. where are the runners who feel it’s all they’ve done but looking back realize they’ve truly gone no where and that they’ve done it all alone? i was a runner tired of running, lacking in being. i didn’t just want to feel sometimes, i wanted to do from my being, not my feelings. those were unsteady and unpredictable. i thought it was more important to get to the answer than to appreciate the path it takes to get there. i hurt people. watched good things continue on their way without even realizing it. my encouragement is this. don’t miss what your Heavenly Father whispers to you. allow yourself to feel again. don’t feel like the “looks in the mirror” are bad things. share your thoughts and pains. they may feel like a burden to you now but may very well be words of comfort to someone going through the same things. in return, comfort for you."
- joshua paul kay
i combined two things i never have before. both are some of my favorite things. chuck taylors and a road bike.

i combined two things i never have before. both are some of my favorite things. chuck taylors and a road bike.

"C.S. Lewis"

"C.S. Lewis"

matthew 12:7 really sticks out at me tonight. Jesus doesn’t want our sacrifice. He’s already done it. He wants us to be wearers of mercy so we can share it.

matthew 12:7 really sticks out at me tonight. Jesus doesn’t want our sacrifice. He’s already done it. He wants us to be wearers of mercy so we can share it.

here’s a lil snippet of the song i recorded and linked on my insta profile 👍.. what’s your favorite funny face i make? (i do it a lot)

twizzler game is strong right now

twizzler game is strong right now

another little diddy i recorded in my bedroom. it would mean a lot if you listened

"Salvation is not a trade where God takes our desires and does who knows what with them. We are still looking through our unredeemed eyes if we see it this way. Salvation is the gift and promise of true life. Its aim is not to take from you, but to add to you. It won’t “take” leaving you empty, but will “add” to make you whole. Jesus death destroyed death, so salvation comes to kill the old and make a new way. Our desires and passions will still be here, and God uses those. Whether in us denying them as He softly calls us closer to learn His richness, or in the turning of our inward hearts as we aim those desires at Christ and others living them out in a life of praise."
- Joshua Paul Kay